I am confused mental illness, my story.

Years I take Headsets Cell Phones hear songs and imagine that I am a singer and all the people close to me are my audience and I ran in the room with excitement I imagine a movie star I also have obsessive thoughts crying spells anxiety despair of life... Once I was impressed from redsphinx
and obssive about him too i know i have ocd and tourtte
But why am I living fantasies and imaginings ?

maybe you just are an ambitious young extrovert filled with dreams and passion but the things hindering you do it to such extent that sneak peeks of your true nature seem abnormal and scare you
its not a fantasy, its yet another part of that multifaceted being called shlomke
you could try being an extra in movies, start with roles of #troubled people that dont say anything, and see where that goes